Flow

Once upon a time I was struck by a number of unessential concepts and expectations that were misleading my being. Often I was sitting near flowing water letting my feelings and thoughts come and go. I allowed them to travel with their flow. I didn’t actively attempt to avoid nor hold on to them. While I welcomed them, I also let them travel onwards. It was a beginning of losing unessential concepts, and expectations. It also reduced disturbing noises that I had created in my mind.

Meanwhile, I experienced having mental traps stopping the flow. These traps very effortlessly overtook my thoughts and feelings. They mislead me. They rooted in habits of my thinking that I adapted to, feelings that I had gotten familiar with, and processes that kicked in automatically. Arguing, comparing, and judging are some of my traps.

The water continued to flow with the gravitation. It surrounded and shaped rocks. It rained down on me. It evaporated, froze and melted. With my habits of thinking it seemed that I was trying to make the water flow upstream. My judging tried to build dams into the way of the natural flow. When comparing I attempted to make flowing water evaporate.

By letting come and go I succeeding to shut down the extra noise and I started to reach the essential. My insights focused on my needs, on my core feelings. Often, the extra noise was simply a misplaced need of safety and belonging leading to some kind of fear and greed. It became easy to let go what wasn’t of essence.

In that, I perceive a great simplicity to the amazingly connected world that moves around and within me.